Spacious

I'm living in a 3200 square foot furnished home at the moment...house-sitting, basically. It's been a bit strange living here as its gone from being occupied by 5 guys [with a 6th guy's stuff in the garage] to 'just me,' though i must confess, it hasn't been what i expected.

I anticipated immense boredom, regret, and generally, to suffer through a tortuous mundane existence. That has not been the case at all. I was worried that all the transformation, restoration, and regeneration God has wrought in me since last May would somehow be undone. Silly me.

A trusted friend of mine has correctly diagnosed that this is the time for things to 'settle' and while i was anticipating this, i didn't view it as valid until he said that. What i mean is, i felt that perhaps i had missed something...God wanted me to do something else, leave Focus, whatever.

I just realized i've been writing 3 lines at a time. Probably because i haven't written in a while, my subconscious desire to weave words together, at times in poetic form, is busting at the seams. I've been putting words together since September--arrogant words about how great i am, and why every law school should accept me.

So far, everyone has. Well, 2 business schools have told me no, and 2 more have said to wait. But its kind of like asking your dream girl out and having her say no--its kind of what you're expecting. The rest of the law schools have all said 'yes.' And many of them are offering me $

$ is a good thing, but its not the only thing. If it were, i'd have never came here to Colorado, or never stayed here, that's for sure. You can't put a price on happiness, and you can't quantify quality of life.

It has been such an unexpected journey, and so much has changed over the past 6 months. The world has been opening up, layer by layer, and i feel so blessed, humbled, and grateful all at the same time, in overwhelming degree. I've only once before had a spiritual time like this, and it also came before a major move to an educational experience. Perhaps that's what God is up to. Or, perhaps He never wanted it interrupted, which is what happened.

Whatever the case, i've been enjoying it. And not only that, but the community has been mind-blowing, as has been working in an enriching, supportive environment. Add to that a great home [thanks Roc & Bev!], skiing, golf, basketball, and my new discipline--weightlifting--and its been quite a life.

I'm working back into reading and writing, but i think i may have needed the rest. It was quite an intense intellectual overhaul in 2008, and so some short rest in 2009 has been well-needed. There will be plenty of time to get revved up this August :)