watch thrown in ocean. not worn for 7 years. now it's at sea bottom. somewhere in the pacific. along with any idol i've put my hope in, relationally. adversity is a gift. it shouts to us in our pain. i'm realizing i have been letting my circumstances control me, in this arena of life.
my new mantra is: start providing security now by preparing to do so in the future without any meeting of my needs now. what i mean is, i have always assumed that providing spiritual, relational, and emotional security are just as important as financial. too many men, once they are married--provide financially but not in other areas. therefore i've focused too much on these. to me, i'd rather be in love and loving God and following Him and poor, but she'll probably want financial security, once she comes along.
so, since God seems to be estopping me from any promise He might have for me in the future, i suppose all i can do is channel everything into provision for her....become a skilled craftsman in the law, and business, and be ready to offer that to her once she, whoever she will be, is ready for a boyfriend, i guess...
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
No comments:
Post a Comment