....you know, the usual things to be dealing with in the waning days of summer. I'm geared up and focused towards finishing things well here, at least for the program. Everyone is asking about the future, and frankly, a lot of it depends on how things go in two days when i visit the John Jay Institute. It would be the perfect thing to do for the next year while waiting on the grad school situation to be sorted out. It is geared towards training Christians intensively for grad school and/or careers headed towards public service, think tanks, government, etc.
The open-heart surgery has been occurring in the classes dealing with, well, everyone's heart, quite frankly. Relationships, family issues, designs for the future regarding these sensitive subjects.....i think there's a reason everyone is much more up in arms than before! Personally i know God is humbling me greatly through this--these are my areas where dependence upon Him is drastically increased, and i know that to stray from His path always has greatly detrimental consequences.
This is going to be a short post b/c i am insanely busy, and frankly, am off it concerning articulation right now. There's been way too much athletic activity [which has been good, in a way]....today i went on a great hike. I motored my way through many miles at a quite fast clip....ended up leading the pack, actually. We dominated in basketball late last week....it was quite an intense competition. Many bruises.....some of mine are still purple.
I've been somewhat frustrated by not having the time i've needed to get some thoughts out, on paper, and personal reading done....that will come soon, though, i have already planned accordingly....i'll be in breckenridge for a few days following the completion of the program here, staying with extended family. I know, tough recovery time :) seriously though, things keep ramping up, in terms of intensity, and i know this next week is going to be especially hectic. Monday is the biggest day for me, and frankly i've accepted that i won't be able to flesh things out until the meeting with John Jay is over. And thats a good thing.
If i have one more female peer or older influence unsolicitedly tell me how great a guy i am, incredible catch, etc., i think i may scream. literally! i'm thinking i'll let it rip at the top of my lungs. ok, obviously i'm not going to do this. It's been vitally encouraging to get this input from others [as i have my entire life], yet at the same time it feels.....patronizing? its late and the right words aren't coming b/c this is a matter of the heart, not the head. Deep down i do know they're being honest, but at the same time it just doesn't make sense with what actually transpires in that area of my life. I know God has been, and will continue to, protect me because He has the right one set aside as He does have me set aside and will match us at the right time. It just feels a bit fishy when we're talking at times about these issues, and concurrently i get comments, and all the while i'm wondering.....is God having fun with this? getting plenty of laughs out of this? i hope He's taping this or something. A voice recorder for my heart and soul....that's what He needs to be wiretapping right now.....very instructive.
Well, if anyone's reading this, thanks for caring enough about me to finish :) i know i can ramble and this particular post probably isn't the finest....but its real. Speaking of that, keep it real, and may you listen to He who wants to know us best, foremost, and at any cost, no matter unreasonable it may seem to us with our finite and often fleeting minds, hearts, and souls.
For His glory alone, your fellow pilgrim along the narrow path....
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