I'm still working on a piece regarding resurrection, that has not yet equaled the force and luminescence of my gem regarding death, written at the outset of my journey into the wilderness to get my heart back a little over a year ago. Eldredge says a young man has to head up into the spiritual high country to get his core back. This has certainly been true with me, and it seems the completion of this process has occurred in the both spiritual and literal/physical high-country...a place rife with beauty, adventure, and stunning force. Anyway, future direction is indeed coming along, and recently my heart has been bursting forth with life. It is at this point when i realize that the last hurdle has yet to be cleared, and until it happens, i remain moored in what Thomas More called 'no-place.' That is not to say this encompasses all of my life, but well, i'm just like Neo when he's in the train station....powerless to remove himself from being stuck, and wholly dependent upon others to rescue him.
This has been the theme of this year for me, and especially the last few months. I have had several life-altering occurrences happen in the past few weeks, and especially recently. It is as if God keeps hammering in to me--you cannot fix yourself, you cannot do what I want you to do without the input and direct altering influence of others. The latest help was eerie...spooky. And i think it may be what God has been holding, waiting to release to me until i am here, having been obedient and finished well the first half of an endeavor that already has, and is continuing to indelibly change my life.
Life continues to flow from me. My brain continually works better and better [provided of course that i sleep :), which i haven't been doing much of lately]. The biggest symptom remains athletic prowess. This has never been evident with me, but its to the point that others are taking notice and mentioning it. No matter what the sport, i'm a dominant presence, thus far. And i have yet to be beaten at cards, chess, checkers, etc. I'm crushing all comers at raquetball....Tyler, you need to come up here and give me a challenge :) My point is not to brag, but simply to say this has to be God's restoration in my soul, for the only evidence i can point to for this is drastically increased confidence, which comes only from Him.
Well, it is late and i'm still groggy from a crazy-awesome weekend spent at my aunt & uncle's cabin at Breckenridge. We watched the fireworks show over a lake, inset amongst the beautiful mountain peaks....and we had Beethoven on the car stero. It was like being in a movie!
More to come later.....hope everyone had a superb Holiday celebration!
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